HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! Sadly, I can’t spend it with mom again this year but it’s alright. I’ll get to see her again really really soon. I’m pretty sure she said they’ll be coming on june 20 so I’m looking forward to that. Hopefully, I’ll still be able to go back right after finals even if its just for 2 weeks or less. Especially since I know I’ll be going to hong kong too if I do go back. There’s just not enough time. Anyways, I think I got her a gift that cant be any better. That is getting into Berkeley. She couldn’t be happier. i mean I finally got into a school that would please them. Tanglin disappointed them since they wanted me to get into rgs and jurong did too. At least those schools didn’t turn out too bad. =) I want to see mom and dad and doggy now!

So I got woken up really early this morning at 8.45am since we were going to have breakfast. Sighs. When can I ever sleep in? definitely not for the next 2 weeks. Went to denny’s. I used to like going there but the food is getting from bad to worse. I want mom to make me my breakfast. >.<>

Went to uncle kenneth’s yesterday evening to celebrate mother’s day. Good food. I mean really good food, though you can always expect that If uncle Kenneth was going to be the chef. The scallops and chicken wings were my favorite. So good. Didn’t do much there. I basically wasted my Saturday. In the morning went out with joyce to shop for mother’s day gift. Finally got earrings at target. Went home to cook hamburgers with almost bad ground beef. Watched tool academy. It was bad but entertaining. We somewhat got caught on to it. It’s one of those shows that you would watch only when there’s nothing else on. The marathon of the previous season was on so we just spent 5 hours on the couch and more when we got to uncle kenneth’s. very bad. Got home at 11. was so sleepy then and I slept at 12 without even touching one bit of my homework which I had initially planned to do. Boo.

On Thursday was the students awards and recognition ceremony. Left physics lab early since i was planning to go to it. Was alright. Went way faster than we thought it would. It started at 4 and ended at 5-5.30. I almost tripped while walking across the stage. It was very badly paved. Luckily, nothing embarrassing happened. So I got a medallion for the honors transfer program and two certs for the scholarship. The san bruno rotary actually enclosed their cheque in the cert so yay, I’m 500 bucks richer except that I didn’t bank it in yet. Too bad dr case didn’t go since she had lab otherwise she would be the one presenting the other scholarship since it was from her family. The other advisor for ptk took over and he was bad at talking. He didn’t even quite know what our chapter got. I mean duh, he’s not even active in our activities. Oh wells. I still need to find a way to go thank her. I’ve been invited to go to a luncheon with the college president on may 20 to meet the san bruno rotary people and thank them for the scholarship. Looking forward to that. And I’m going with someone else I know so it should be too bad. Plus I get to leave history class early too. The president’s gonna drive us there and back so that’s good too. Alright I should get started with my pile of stuff. Its already called last minute work. Have my speech exam tomorrow, art on tues and chemistry on Friday!

Dear Jessica,Congratulations! You have been admitted to the University of California, Davis, for fall quarter 2009.Please visit our MyAdmissions Web site at http://myadmissions.ucdavis.edu to respond to our offer of admission, check your financial aid status and complete your required pre-enrollment tasks. Use your UC Davis Student ID (blah) to set up your MyAdmissions account, if you haven't already done so. Please keep your Student ID in a safe, accessible location.You must submit your Statement of Intent to Register (SIR) at MyAdmissions by June 1 to confirm your attendance at UC Davis. You should receive your official letter of admission and admission packet in the mail by the end of the month.Again, congratulations on your admission to UC Davis and welcome to our Aggie family!

happy happy happy. okay, really that was exaggerating. i was already kinda expecting to get in so yeah. but now at least i know for sure that i have somewhere to go. :) forwarded the email to mom and dad and that was the quickest reply i got from them in a while. lol. wonder how they'll respond IF i get into berkeley. dad was really sweet. not that im all materialistic but thats just the way he is.

"Congratulation darling this is the first step you achieved,
Will get a pcs of tiffany for you and one more if ............UCB. K?
Love you forever."

i have no idea what pcs is. but tiffany sounds awesome enough. muahaha. see the pressure mounting now. mom was no better with adding the pressure.

"Hi Jess,
Congratulations ! the 1st good news right? Now wait for your 2nd good news from UCB lah.
Love you."

so basically, i was in front of my computer almost the entire day watching videos. sadly i got woken up early in the morning by once again, their constant walking around and talking. seriously i need to sound proof my room if not wear noise cancelling earplugs. no wonder jon got pissed last time when they used to be downstairs talking. at least go to the other side of the room and not the dining table. cos i can clearly hear every single word u say. so most of the time, i just eavesdrop on their conversation. >.<>

anyways, had honey comb cereal for breakfast. watched episode 15 of housewives holiday. then hell's kitchen. made tacquitos for lunch. then finally watched high school musical 3. i know im sooo behind. have to say i like it way more than the second. the second one sucked. it kinda relates to what i went through last semester and a lil of this semester too since its my last. picking the right colleges, doing what you want to do, choosing the right courses and hoping that u dont make the wrong decision and all that stuff. its real and it relates. so thats good. yes yes acting aint that great but they really arent professionals yet so i cant realy blame them.

read the devil wears prada after till dinner. watched wizards of waverly place and showered and here i am now. lots of stuff to do now. planning on finishing my chem reports tonight. and i have physics due tomorrow night. sigh. i hate physics to the core. i mentioned this a million times but i still cant get enough of it. which reminds me tomorrow is daylight savings which means we lose an hour. oh great. what timing.

alright ran out of things to say. not exactly. i got lazy...

i need a vacation

Saturday, March 07, 2009

am i being stupid rejecting an ivy league school such as cornell university? it's not any school that comes knocking on your door sending you tons of mail every single week, advertising their school, waiving the application fee mind you. its an ivy league school. a branded school for goodness sake. yet, all i do is chuck them aside or tear up the envelope where the address is in case of identity theft and throw it in the recycling. i've been getting tons of mail from private universities since its the period of transfer application and they all look so appealing. why doesnt uc berkeley do just that?? cornell is one that appeals to me. one problem. its in new york. do i really want to pack my bags, leave "home" and go into a completely foreign state? i dotn even think i can survive going over to davis let alone a whole new state. and how much will i like new york. the east vs the west. i just cant stand this waiting anymore. just just now, dad called. not bad news or anything but he was just saying so when i ll know whether i ll get into berkeley or not and i said end april. so he said, next month? i was like no, april 30. only to realize wait it is march already. crap, i ll know in a month. i didnt know april was approaching so quickly. i dont know how i'll feel. this is so timely with the a level results. schools need to stop sending me their catalogs...

i know as some are fretting over whether they ll get into the course they want over in singapore, and im here whining. but thinking of which, how fair is it to students there? one is passionate about getting into a highly demanded course but because of results or great number of applications, one is denied a spot, only to have to choose another course they're not that interested in. doesnt one have the right to choose the career path that they want? yes you work hard for it. but that doesnt mean competing with others all the time. you can work your butt off but there's always others who do better than you. results dont mean everything in the world. we should be our own competition. people shoudl be able to choose what they want to do and at least have a chance to have a go at it. and if they find out theyre not cut out for it, let them change. its not like people get experience in the different fields there. all we care about in school is learning those few core subjects and sit for the o's and a's. there's not a single class on psychology or sociology, or engineering or biochem or pharmacy or animal science. how in the world are students suppose to know whether they like that course or not? i just dont think its fair to them. not everything is about results. its about passion. and we wonder why people dont last long in their jobs. or why people keep switching their jobs after a few years.

maybe thats one thing thats good here. we choose our course that we think we want to study. take a few classes that are associated with that course. perhaps even do a couple of research papers and experiments depending. dont like it, change. yes it may be a waste of time but wouldnt it benefit in the long term? im definitely not saying that its good to switch routes all the time cos that will be a huge waste of time but at least let people have one or two chances to get what they desire. you just cant force somebody to get into a less favored course when theyre denied a spot elsewhere. its just frustraating for me to hear someone worry about whether they'll get into a certain course at nus only because its an impacted course and tons of other people scoring straight a's will be eyeing for that course. i cant put alll my thoughts fully into words here but u get the idea.

i think i ll be going to bed now though theres lot of stuff i wanna update about. been really busy at school these few weeks. 23 units = test every week.. scholarship applications to fill, school info to update and all that other crap. maybe i should have gone off to san jose for the weekend for the regional conference just to relax. oh wells. too late now. i ll just go to texas for the internationals instead i suppose.

i miss my dog so bad too.

homework homework and more homework

Monday, February 23, 2009

it's raining again. i like the rain. it has a warm fuzzy feeling to it. i would totally sleep in if not for the constant thought that we were going to be do something.

slept at 2am yesterday. was rushing to complete the case study. i didnt really know what to do with it. i could type in stuff but it was already over the word limit so i just shifted things around my way so that it would flow better. tried cutting down words but that just meant taking sentences away. i don t know. its just that i feel that i havent done enough. it doesnt feel like my work. i dont know whose. most prob case. at least its gonna be over soon. more time to concentrate on the other stuff on my to do list which is never cleared. i have 2 tests this week and its killing me. i keep putting things off. i should get off this now. i was just using this to procrastinate more. yes ,what a paradox if its even used properly.

i had the weirdest dream ever. i'm still wondering what happened to the rabbit.

sad house transformation

Sunday, February 22, 2009

im super sad now. i think its called a mid house crisis.

pingpong drink game

Saturday, February 21, 2009

woohoo! weekends are here again. cant believe another week has come and passed just like that. though it did seem a lil shorter since monday was a hol. if only we had 4 day weeks. heh heh. never gonna happen anyways, not until i become a boss of my own or win the lottery. i can continue dreaming. which is what i should be doing since its 1am now.

i just had tons of sugar. so i went downstairs to do my laundry and jon and his friends were around so he asked if i wanted to play with them since they were short of one person. so i was sure since its friday anyway. simple but fun game. whoever came up with it is really creative. so this is how it goes:
there's 2 teams, one on each side of a long table. place 10 cups on each side arranging it like bowling pins. you need 3 ping pong balls. so the whole point of the game is to try to get the ping pong ball into the cups. the catch. cups are filled with drink of your choice. to make it more interesting, add a shot or less or more depending of alcohol into certain cups. u could add it in all if u want but we're not that crazy plus im underage and so was jon. lol. anyways, we used brisk first. too much brisk is disgusting. back to the point, if team A manages to get a ball in, one person from team B would have to drink that cup. everyone gets a turn. (add more cups if you have more people) dont remove the ball immediately once it falls in cos someone else may end up throwing another ball into the same cup so the other person has to drink double or the no of balls in that cup. and, if lets say the ball doesnt get in but doesnt hit the table or cups either and the other team catches the ball, the team which threw the ball has to drink a cup from their side. and if the ball bounces on the table first then gets into the cup, that team has to drink 2 cups. other catch, u can "swat" the ball back to prevent it from getting in. i know it sounds really complicated here but its much simpler than it is. it was pretty fun. but now im on a sugar high. had 2 rounds of pepsi. bloated. i think the others must be much worse since they started playing before i did. and they had vodka too. would play it again but depends with who too.

alright so school was alright today. o chem test wasnt that bad. probably messed up a lil on the retrosynthesis portion but if he could read what i wrote then its fine. he didnt give enough space for us to write. bates used to give us a whole page for questions like this. i think i should really stop comparing them. i am biased and i cant help it. he has after all been my chem prof for 3 semesters. other than that, nothign really exciting happened. saw case after school. i still have case study to do! sigh. never gonna get a break. but that ll be over soon. dont think i contributed as much as i wanted to anyways. lots of stuff to do this weekend. got home and watched bolt while having lunch. bolt is soo adorable. i missed my dog so bad at the end of it. what they said made so much sense and i felt bad. i did tear up towards the end too. i love disney movie and extra bonuses with such cute dogs in it. surfed the net for a while. watched curious case of benjamin button during dinnner. pretty good movie except that we had a rather bad quality disc. it fast forwarded twice for i don t know how long and we could hear the audience at certain points. now u know why its bad. lol. it was sad though. so many deaths. falling in and out of love. dementia. hiding secrets from your own child. never knowing who your parents are. and the list just goes on.

so when i was surfing the net today and someone got onto my school website, i saw a section that contained newsletters on the school which i didnt know it existed. doubt anyone does. its produced by the school president called skyline shines. so i was looking through it and and and i saw my name in a couple of issues. had pictures too. i was i have to say pretty delighted and accomplished. it was mainly for phi theta kappa. induction, clean up at sweeney ridge and international honors institute. it did feel good though to know that youre recognized. but above all, that youre doing something good, going green and saving the earth. i dont regret joining ptk at all. 65 bucks was totally worth it. in fact i regret not joining it sooner. see, i do feel connected to the school in some way. i do like skyline. i dont want to exactly get oout of skyline. maybe its because im used to it here and i m comfortable here. i think i can say i like being able to see people that say hi to you every few steps you walk. every hallway u walk through or every flight of stairs you climb. its just nice to know that youre noticed and not just a fly on the wall that people disregard. i think the only thing im missing now to make my time here at skyline more complete would be to do a proper research which i m totally thinking about doing over the summer. but i have to think of what to research about and with who. could do it alone but that ll be just tons of work. and its more comfortable to work with someone else. at least theres someone you can consult easily. i ll try to reach that goal and i ll have no regrets at all. i have to say it would be pretty impressive considering that youve just been here for 2 years compared to 3 that most people have.

alright i should get to bed soon. slept late yesterday doing some more extra problems. should get back my sleep this weekend so i can start next week well since i have tons of tests and quizzes next week. stuff that i have no idea about. sigh. for now, goodnight!

stressing out!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

im stressing out over my chem exam on friday! so many reactions to remember. i do not like retrosynthesis because it makes you think. and i am extremely slow in switching from bond line to structural formulas so the book has to stop switching all over the place.. and they have to play mj today. im annoyed. =( at least i get to see jacquieee tomorrow. hope its not gonna be a long day tomorrow...

life after people

Monday, February 16, 2009

this is part of studying and so i think.

just watched a documentary while having lunch titled "life after people" and it was really interesting if i may say so. it may be a lil exaggerated but it is indeed possible and perhaps even a hundred percent true. scary as it may seem, this day will come or so i think. well, have you ever wondered what life would be without people? if we just disappeared from the face of the earth, how would earth look like in 1 day, 3 days, a week, a year, 50 years, 100 years, 100 years? we really arent the most superior species as we may think so. if we werent around, domesticated pets will be the first to die especially dogs. they cant feed themselves. we feed them daily. they would have to get out of the house and start finding scraps which arent in them or just yet unlike cats. food will start to rot in supermarkets. i m not going to go into detail of everything since its just way too much. but basically, vegetation would just take over. fires will occur from lightnings. floods will take place when dams no longer work, when electricity is out. houses will be engulfed by termites. its the plants that outgrow us and the itsy bitsy creatures we call pests. over years, steel will start to corrode and the all so mighty structures will collapse. think of the empire state, the golden gate bridge, the brooklyn bridge. it will be almost as though human kind never existed and no one will know. our replacements will never know we existed. paper recording, multimedia will all be long gone. perhaps the great wall, the egyptian pyramids will be around but thats it. its the purest of all materials that can withstand mother nature.

it's just all sort of intriguing. as quoted, life was around before humans so life would still be around after humans. maybe it will be a much peaceful, much more beautiful earth. i dont know. when they showed scenes of the ocean and the over abundance of marine life, it was just amazing. pretty. beautiful and perfect.

go watch it. its really kinda cool.

happy valentine's day

Sunday, February 15, 2009

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

nothing special really. as i predicted, i ll be home whisking away homework which till now, i deem unsuccessful. i dont know why its just so hard to take out the big fat heavy chem or physics book and start reading away. i spent half the morning and half the afternoon surfing the web for designer goods which i can only look at and add to my wish list but wait for a hundred years before they actually go into my closet. i want a walk in closet and make it look like a mall, like the one princess mia has in the princess diaries. theoretically not impossible, practically, i may continue dreaming. i dont know why im typing this because i was suppose to be saying how im munching on royce chocolates from japan. this is sooo random. maybe its the valentine blues. lol. jon was sweet though. he put roses outside my door which i didnt even notice at first when i went to the bathroom.

okay, i think my 4 day weeekend is gonna be wasted and im already feeling guilty. parrty tomorrow for marcel's birthday. i think im gonna be soo bored. its all lil kids. okay maybe not so lil but still... monday reserved for chemistry i think. hopefully i do start somehow.

i are happy i made a powerpoint for mom and dad for valentines.

i are homesick again

i want a puppy kiss and hug and tail whack. hahaha. i want to go to the playground and lay on the grass with him and feel his warmth. what can i say. hes the best dog yet. did i ever mention i want a golden retriever, siberian husky, spaniel, saint bernard when i get my own house and perhaps a kittty too. plus a couple of hamsteers. maybe even a bunny. im serious.

my house used to be like a zoo. and i like it that way. now its just empty.

4 day weekend

Saturday, February 14, 2009

randon pictures to start the post :)

i miss my puppy. a lot.

my new toy-i call it my baby laptop. cheesy i know. i got the golden brown colored one but couldnt find a nice picture of it.

the watch i got at forever 21.

who can say no to a 4 day weekend? definitely not me! 4 weeks of school and im already struggling. this must be the hardest semester yet. no one should ever torture themselves by taking 23 units. seriously take this advice unless you're a child prodigy or sth. or maybe taking crappy classes then go for it. week's been alright. just realy looking forward to the weekend so wasnt concentrating much.

chem lab on monday was screwed and horrible. had to redo the whole experiment again next next monday. plus i cut myself with steel wool while trying to get it apart. =( i was so afraid it would cause an infection too. but its alright not. i have to say it was pretty painful worse than a paper cut. cos it was deeper. at least it healed now or sort of. (remember 4 day weekend = monday no school = happy me) tuesday was just alright. i got sooo annoyed with my physics professor. he just got on my bad side and he's the first after 2 years at skyline or going to 2 years. his lectures are horrible and boring to begin with. he made it worst by prolonging a stupid problem that was entirely in the book. it was a dipole moment charged ring problem and he was trying to make us derive or prove the equation. he started writing stuff down and asked us questions which we answered but werent sure if we were right. and i forgot what went on since i got soo annoyed. we literally spent serveral minutes silent cos we didnt know the answer. so someone started saying that it should be R^2 and not r^2 or sth like that and he was like right, cos there's bullcrap on the board now. i was like thanks, you just wasted the entire class writing crap and waiting till now to say its wrong. by then, class already ended and he was like, finish it as homework and attach acover page. i was like wth. good thing that was my last class of the day. i seriously wanted to strangle him. typing it makes me mad too.

anyways, so i went off to take the bus since janet was at school the whole day. (we cant do proper studying at home, its way too distracting) so i bus-ed to tanforan mall to buy stuffo. it was amazing. i got on the 11.17am bus. reached around 11.30ish or so. and i zipped through the mall in one hour and took the 12.34pm bus home. it was quite fun if i may say so. i had a list of things i wanted to buy in mind so that saved me tons of time too. went to forever 21 to get a watch that i fell in love with the first time i saw it. it was cheap too since it was plastic though it looks like leather and it has fake diamonds on it. lol. but i still like it. went to ulta after since i needed to get shampoo. got my favourite paul mitchell tea tree. wasnt as expensive as i thought it would be. was contemplating if i should get the purple opi nail polish but decided not to until i went to the counter to pay and saw the mini's in a pack of four. and it had the purple one i wanted. so of course i got it. to think i could resist the urge to spend more. haha! next stop was mrs fields. got 20 nibblers for 5 bucks. all milk chocolate. yums. off to target next. got 2 boxes of oatmeak. peach and strawberry. those are excellent for a quick and yum breakfast especially on a cold morning. or when we run out of milk. lol. got other misc stuff too. spent 60 odd bucks altogether. so 60 bucks in an hour it is. muahaha. its not that often i do such quick shopping. but thats the kind of stuff you can do only when you're alone. i want to go on another shopping spree. this time for clothes! it would be impossible to zip through the mall this time though. anyone up for it? i do have to get clothes if i want to go the the international convention so i do need to go on a formal shopping spree. =)

had math test on thurs was alright. integration... it was physics that made everyone go crazy again. our homeowrk was due at midnight so everyone was rushing it out in mesa. was hilarious. also got dr case to do a letter or recommendation for me for scholarships. finally got her to do it. she's intimidating alright. but shes really nice and smart too. her office was secluded in a corner which was kinda cool. didnt manage to scan through her office entirely since i just wanted to get out after she said yes before she asked me anythign about the case study which i have yet to do. at least i got a rec which i m happy about. got prof bates to do the other one. those are two profs that im closer with. only because i worked with them for a couple of semesters. there definitely are others that are really nice too and we do say hi when we walk past. what can i say, i like skyline. back to physics, dagan even got us brownies and cupcakes from the cafeteria. of course we had to pay him back. had a cupcake for 50cents. its small things like this and people around you that gives one a smile and make doing homework that much more pleasant. it was after lab that everyone really started to panic. finally finished at 6. got home and watched grey's. kinda cool how grey;s and private practice crossed over though i have to catch up on private practice.

spent today watching videos. got up kinda late so nothing productive came out. so i conclude that today is my rest day. start studyign tomorrow. i have tons of tests coming up and a speech to write up too. sigh. and my body isnt helping. i think my wisdom teeth is growing out and it aint good cos my gum at the end is kinda swollen. hope it rides over soon. it usually does. and my finger is swollen too. dont know why. its been like that for a couple of weeks now. not like theres a cut or anything. it just is. as though theres a lymph node in there or something. if only i was in singapore now. i could just zip off to the ridgewood clinic or off to camden. hope i go back to normal. lol.

tomorrow's v day and i dont really care about it or have nothing to care if i should say so. unless u consider studies. but speaking of that again, i dont exactly love studying. lol. though i have to say its beetter than work. dont think theres gonna be anyone at home. joyce is in korea now. now i miss the times when i was there with mom and dad. i just want to go traveling again like we always do. ( i do realize i have yet to blog or post pictures about my winter vacation) will do that tomorrow night maybe? depends. thinking about it just makes me homesick. i guess its just the familiarity. how you know where everything is, the feeling of home. where i am now is home but not my home. and there is a difference obviously. sometimes i ask. if i stayed in singapore for just a short while, would i still like that country? i do feel attached to it somewhat in a way. afterall, thats where i spent my childhood. no questions about that. and maybe again, its just the people, friends... school. maybe things would be different if mom and dad were living here too. oh wells. that ll have to wait. i ve been saying i wont be going back in the summer but i wonder if i can bear not to. i know my bro will definitely be going back. but i really want to get some research done to put on my resume. even though by then i ll know if i ll get into berkeley.

i have it in my mind that if i do get in, the moment i know, i would call my parents even if its 3am in the morning. i would send tons of internet sms and try to get through to the house phone. i know they ll forgive me for waking them up in the middle of night. i have a whole picture of whats gonna happen or what im gonna do if i get in. but i dont have anything in mind or what im going to do if i dont. im scared. seriously. i dont have a picture. no idea. maybe i shoudl be thinking. i know im gonna crash when the day is getting nearer. but for now, im alright. just a teeny bit worried and scared but enough to keep me focused on studies.

alright i think im done blogging for the night. im surpised janet's still up but i guess she s still working on her gift that s why. though i have to admit, i have been sleeping earlier than her these weeks. or at least i think so. i like waking up in the middle of the night and looking at the time and know its still early like at 1am and being able to go back to sleep.

shoudl wake up early tomorrow and start cracking my brain.

worst scare

Friday, February 06, 2009

i got the worst scare of my life. okay maybe not so exaggerated. so i used my baby laptop in the morning since i was early and didnt shut it down completely after using it but put it on standby mode since i was gonna use it again later. but i guess it didnt go to standby mode completely but i closed it and put it away. so when i took it out 2 hours later, it was burning hot. again not so exagerated but u get the idea. i was panicking! and it wouldnt turn on too. if the battery was drained, why is it still so warm. it was so warm that after holding it, i was warm too. plus it was a cold day plus raining. i guess plus adrenaline thats why. so i took out the batt and laid the lappy on the table hoping it will cool down. thank goodness it did. but at the same time i was so afraid that if i charged it, it will explode. i dont know why that thought but thinking about all the bad manufacturing and stuff, it wasnt impossible. good thing nothing is happening now its charging. just hoping that i ll be able to turn it on later without anything going wrong. it does have a one year warrenty but its local thats means it has to be in singapore. sigh.. plus the dad here doesnt even know i have this laptop. lol. i dont know why i didnt tell him. so yeah, ive pretty much been stealing someone's connection. serves u right for not locking/securing ur wireless. haha!!!

i ve heard so many good gossips in school today. lol. thanks to the 3 hour break.

i think i am random and not giving proper updates but im ve been busy and lazy. see it even rhymes. i keep putting off everythign to the weekends but the thing is, i dont want to do anything on the weekends either. read w-e-e-k-e-n-d-s. break it up and the week has ended. that should equal no work. im starting to ramble off arent i. oh wells time to do some work. aaahh now i think im contradicting myself. thats the result of stress.

superbowl sunday plus a completely lazy weekend

Monday, February 02, 2009

its superbowl sunday and im spending it doing homework which is taking forever to complete. no, there's not a ton to do but because of procrastination which i proudly admit, i predict its going to take the whole day. i am seriously in no mood to do anything except surf the net for riduculous information or play another game of cranium except that theres only 2 of us at home so there's no point. then again, why isnt there anyone home when its superbowl. i need to pick up the momentum in studying again. i think its just all because of cny. it spoils the studying mood. lol. anyways , i need to update on my winter trip before total dementia falls upon me and i forget everything which would be a pity since i loved that trip so much. korea was over the top last minute decision with some unhappy start but who cares, its what happened that counts. 2/3 days was way too short looking at the amount of duty free shpping that could be done and the amount of food that can be eaten. i could eat kimchi and spicy tofu soup for the rest of the year and not squirm. even ginseng which i dont eat but do eat when stuffed into a chicken and made into chicken soup appeals to me. okay. i should stop cos its making me homesick again. i wonder how puppy is doing.... and i'm absolutely in love with my baby laptop. although the sloww school wireless connection makes me go insane at timees. now i get to see mom and dad all the time since it has the webcam installed in it and i dont have to deal with wires and the hussle of having to dig it out of the drawers. ><>

one more thing i think i have horrible teachers this semester. if only i had the freedom to choose my professors. unfortunately taking 23 units deprives me of that chance since my schedule can only do so much.

the low temperatures

Monday, January 26, 2009

i am freezing cold in my room and i dont know why the heater isnt on. i remember shivering before climbing into the warmth and comfort of my sheets. thats how cold it was. plus i wasnt even out for a long time. i was in the bathroom for like 5 minutes or less and shivering while walking back to my room. absurd please. its currently 16 degrees in my room so no one will be pushing me to get out of the house because im pretty sure i ll just be shaking and that is not fun. im glad the rainy days are over. it actually rained for a long time on friday. since morning till i was out of school at like 4pm and later. i didnt have my waterproof jacket on but i was sure tucked up in a furry white jacket which was a horrible mistake. plus it was new too! not that it got dirty or ruined but im just sad that the poor jacket had to go through so much on its first day out of the box. i think im getting a lil over the top here.

so first week of school was alright. a lil boring but thats perfect since im on a lazy streak here. didnt feel like doing anything at all even if it doesnt relate to school. friday was totally bummed out. helped out at eyh mailing from 12.30 to 3 ish. was much more organized this time so everything went smoothly. dont think i ll be a presenter this year though. its all good. and i have to say the school's reception is atrociously bad. even the new building doesnt have signals. maybe theyre doing it on purpose so we cant use our phones in class. so i called jan to see if she could pick me up and she said the cleaning people were here so she'll call when shes coming after theyre gone. so i waited in building 7 for a bit and then went to the caf building. apparently i lost signal and didnt realize till i was wondering whats taking so long only to realize that i didnt have signal so she may have called and i didnt know. so i guess we both waited for quite a bit before i saw her message and voicemail. oops. not entirely my fault you know. dont remember what i spent the rest of the day doing. think i finished love blossoms. very draggy and long and not very nice but that kept me entertained for a long time.

sat was totally a waste of time. i know i watched harry potter while havign lunch then american idol auditions. thats the only part of american idol that keeps me entertained to see how people make a fool out of themselves. did the dishes and stared at the com for the rest of the day. so i procrastinated doing my homework and studying for the whole day. pity and sinful. alright i should stop harping and find something productive to do....... which is going to be unsuccessful if i may say so now.


and i am still unfortuantely freezing.

school

Friday, January 23, 2009

the school internet connection is sooo slow... i have a 3 hour break and if this goes on, i think i ll go bonkers.

sleepy

Thursday, January 22, 2009

its only 5pm now and im already yawning already. i think im still jetlagging which is bad. cant believe i slept at 7.30pm yesterday. i think its the earliest i slept in a long long time. but the bad thing is that i woke at 5am. couldnt go back to sleep so i used my lappie for an hour or so and went back to sleep at 6 for another hour or sort of since i wasnt exactly sleeping. i think this will go on till the weekends. its not sooo bad since i dont have to drag myself out of bed but if this goes on, school will be dreadful especially when theres going to be tons of homework to be done. its only the second day and im already dreading it. i see the workload building up already. 23 units is sure gonna be a killer and i wonder how im going to survive. plus ive got tons to keep track of. applications, scholarships, fafsa stuff, ptk stuff. grr... i just need to know that i can get into berkeley then maybe all these wont be so bad after all. taking 3 science and 3 art classes which i know nothing of especially art and history is worrying me enough. so far, it seems okay. not too much assignments just a couple of research papers and quizzes plus tests to study for. still, i know how teachers are. their tests always fall on the same week if not same day. so ive gotta start preparing. trying to recall my chemistry stuff now but yawning every 5 minutes isnt helping.

quick fact: all my professors this semester are male. whats with that?

i think im having trouble breathing now and i dont know why. its like im not taking up enough oxygen or something. not like i have a cold or anything. oh wells.

shoudl get back to work now. though i dont know where to start. i need to get my hallmark written out sooon before i get killed.

inauguration

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

history has been made....

too bad i missed it since i had class.

classes were okay today. the same boring stuff. like the new building 7. though it can get pretty confusing. its seriously like a maze. should take a walk through that on thurs during my 3 hour break. heh. good thing i have my mini lappie to accompany me through the long harsh break for now. i think its even lighter than my physics or chem text book. i should really be working on the hallmark draft but am really in no mood to do it now. maybe i should start filling out my scholarship applications.

back to school again

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

will update about trip again soon. lots of stuff to settle down into again and im already feeling homesick which is depressing. i miss my dog, mom and dad and my room. its worse that school starts tomorrow at 8am! my last semester. oh make it fun. till then, good night. was nodding off while watching family guy so thats a sign. plus i woke at 7.30am today but lied down till 10. that explains the fatique.

happy new year!

Thursday, January 01, 2009

2009 is here! so.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

nothing special really. went shopping today at taka. saw ms solastri and mrs sulaiman at the food court. lol. was funny. almost kinda "fought" for a table? hard to explain but funny they still recognize i. bought jeans and a shirt from UCB. im only buying from them because of the acronym. i cant even spell. lol. got home after going to the supermarket again. lol. watched tv and rushed my school work so i could send it without being a grilled dory as quoted by another fish. lol. going away to macau and hk for the weekend. casinos! haha. i cant believe im only left with another 2 and a half weeks. im already sad and i dont know why. boo. alright i should be sad at the beginning of 2009. time to hit the sheets now. my first sleep for 2009. lol!

omg

Monday, December 29, 2008

omg. i cant believe dr case just sent an amazingly nice but weird email.

happy happy

Sunday, December 21, 2008

went shopping today! now im happy cos i didnt buy much for myself but spent 80 bucks in 2 hours. got lots of stuff though. =D i dont know what to blog about actually. im just bored. been watching so much videos online theres nothing else that i havent already seen. sad.

im very very excited now.

nemo.... go online now. im bored... ><

bum

Thursday, December 18, 2008

school has officially ended on monday afternoon. or sort of. more bout that later. but as long as classes and finals are concerned, its over!!!! hooray. this horrible yet fulfilling semester is over with.

finals were alright i guess. anthropology was easy peezy. physics was a killer. it always is anyways so nothing new. sat there for a while thinking about a couple of questions. its always physics that just makes me wanna give up. i can't even sit there and look at the question lest think about how to do it. i dont know why but physics is so foreign now. but once i get the paper back with answers, it'll be like geez i know how to do that. annoying. sociology was stupid. he puts in exactly the same questions from the 2 midterms. good thing i did well on those so i just had to recall the answers. the new stuff was alright too. probbaly got some of the new stuff wrong since i didnt study that much. that thursday killed me. i kept contemplating to see if i should study physics first or sociology first. ended up i did socio first. finished my notes but still wasnt feeling all confident about it so when i was doing physics which took forever, i kept thinking about socio and hope that i would finish early enough to study a lil more for socio. slept at 2 i think. insane. good thing it was friday so i didnt have to force myself to study again for chemistry which was on monday. at least i had the weekend. hung around school for a while after. was feeling so lazy. yay for connie who drove me home. i need to drive soon. get around more easily. got home had lunch watched videos. decided if i should study at night but obviously didnt in the end. was too lazy and tired and lethargic. sat was spent with chemistry. did do a bit but kept getting distracted. of course i regretted that in the end since sunday was insane. started to panic in the late afternoon since i hadnt started on the new material yet. but good thing i still mananged to finish at 2am. of course the downside, i overslept the next day! told jon to send me to school at the normal time though my exam only starts at 11 so i could study last minute. (it did help) but i woke at 8.20 when we ususally leave at 8.30! got a shock but all was good cos he overslept too! lol. aunt jenny was off that day so she started to make a fuss out of it too. she didnt know i overslept. she just asked why i havent left the house and asked if jon was sending me. end up she found out jon wasnt awake yet and started to get mad and stuff. she asked why i didnt wake him up. i didnt say anything since i was still in a daze. lol. uncle jackson ended up sending me to schoool. went to the library to print out stuff and then off to get my coffee before settling down to cram some last miniute info in my small head. exam went alright. not tooo hard or anything. did use up the entire 2 and a half hours though. hopefully i ll do decently. not hoping for an a. will settle for a b but an a would make my semester. seriously. waited for the bus and got home. had lunch. watched videos. and packed my room! yay! clean room now. i have a shoe rack and small cabinet. (think i mentioned it before) still not enough room to put all my stuff though. so some stuff were just pushed aside. it was a lazy yet fun day. happy happy happy. tuesday. woke up at 11? started getting hot because of the heater. i think my room is the warmest since its the smallest and the heater's right above my bed. goood and bad i suppose. did a lil of the case study. sifting through newspaper. got a few articles. still have to write my essay on a part of it though which i keep procrastinating on. should really get it done soon. sigh. didnt really do much i have to say. whole day of lazing around. watching tv/videos. but thats what i ve been waiting for all semester. i really should find something to do though. like reading twilight.

today's the same nothing interesting. uploading songs to my ipod now. havent used it at all since dad gave it to me in the summer.

okay. getting bored of typing now. boo. continue later....

one more to go

Saturday, December 13, 2008

its a miracle im still awake now even though its only 9.30pm. studied till 2am last night and woke up at 6 this morning. its toture! i havent gotten up so early for school this whole semester! and the worst thing is physics is the first paper. no wonder my brain wasnt functioning. not a surprise really. so as expected, i dont think i did well. maybe a b if im lucky. hopefullly i could just get a b for this class. i ll be satisfied. im never a physics person especially with calculus, heh. his questions are ridicuously hard and confusing but enough said. i just want a b. then was sociology. glad he used the exact same questions on the midterm otherwise i would have done badly. wouldnt say i did as well as i wanted to. wasnt really focused in studying for that all because of physics. boo. but im pretty sure i ll get an a since i topped the class the last time so unless my journal plus presentation was horrendous and this exam was a disaster, i ll be fine. okay. i m just convincing myself here. i realize im actually quite optimistic at times. lol. rushed through my chemistry lab report after. was totally typing crap. sat with connie in the caf to get her chem notes from the review session. prof bates walked past and saw us so i didnt have to go to his office. it was freezing windy cold. im pretty sad i wont have him as my chem teacher next sem for o chem 2. after having him for 3 semesters, its just gonna be really hard to have a change. im not someone who enjoys much of a change unless theres something about it that really annoys me. he's really nice. hopefully i could still have him write me a letter of recomendation for next semester. scholarships!! when he gave his end of semester "speech", i was actually sad. but oh wells. like ive said, i dont think i can bear to leave skyline after next semester too. everyone's just soo nice there.

came home today. had dino nuggets for lunch. yums. have to say i havent had lunch at home for a while now. been staying in school late nowadays for review sessions and labs. sigh. glad its gonna be over soon though the whole process is gonna start again in a month's time. thats gonna be even more crazy. i have no idea how im gonna cope. shall not think about that now. watched survivor and love blossoms 2. characters getting really annoying especially with all that shouting. heh. but to keep me from being bored, im watching it. im already halfway done. haha. still contemplating if i should start studying tonight. feeling kinda lazy and bummed. maybe i ll jsut do the first few easier topics. we ll see.

i realize i actually have tons of things to do after monday. spinning assignment thats due on dec 19, case study, hallmark writing, organize my room (uncle jackson just made me a shoe rack and cabinet) and some others which i obviously dont remember. shopping for sure! haha.

alright. i think im done with blogging for now. nemo "just" came online. ><

goodbye

Monday, December 08, 2008

i hate saying goodybyes.

shopping downtown

havent blogged in a while which is no surprise. been soooo busy lately and its down to the final week and 1 day. lol. supposed to be spending lots of fruitful time studying this weekend but it obviously wasnt the case. mom and dad are here thats why!! so the whole last week was spent with them. they would send me to school and pick me up after, go for lunch, hang out and if i do go home to sleep, i might get homework thats due the next day done but otherwise, my bag if pretty much left untouched. i do feel guilty okay. if i sleep over at the hotel, its even worse cause i get nothing done. how fun. shall pdate more on that next time. after my finals.

but anyways, on friday, i took bart downtown right after school to meet my parents. my dad's meeting was there so they got a hotel or rather his office got him a hotel there. since it was friday and i was soo happy over my chem test, i bart downtown. it was my first time okay. or sort of excluding the other time where i went with a group of people i met at ptk institute. okay nothing exciting. met my mom and we went to have lunch. japanese food! my mom doesnt scrimp on food thats what i know. haha. had soba-havent had that for sooo long. 2 yearss? and a sushi and sashimi platter. yums. satisfying lunch. goodbye to tv dinners for now. then shopping!!! was great. went to victoria secret but there wasnt much of a good deal. went to macy's after so i could use my 50 bucks gift card. got 2 jeans and mom got 1 shorts. got jamba juice after. mango a go go is the best. i think i could live on jamba juice. oh before that whle going back to the hotel after lunch to put my backpack down, walked past borders and i saw the tale of beedle and bards on display. couldnt resist so i got it! yays. bedtime stories. haha. went old navy too. got 3 tops. shopping makes me happy. especially with momsie and no guys around. lol. was about to go to banana republic but dad called and told us to go for dinner. i was still full but he was with a friend and stuff. plus it was at chinatown and i didnt really want to have chinese food but oh wells. i couldnt leave dad alone... was whining all the while when walking. im pretty sure mom got annoyed. heh. and there goes one day. of course, i had ice cream before going off to bed. who could resist haagen daaz. from walgreens. lol!

its already 2.30 pm and i still have a sociology presentation ue tomorrow and i have to start on it so wish me luck. mom and dad are coming over for dinner later too. sigh. so many things to doooooooooo. stresssed and screwedddd.

mom and dad are here

Monday, December 01, 2008

im happy and stressed. its 11pm and theres school tomorrow. update soon.

AAHHHH SO MUCH STUFFO TO DO!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Friday, November 28, 2008

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! or should i say happy turkey day. muahaha. no school today but i was sadly woken up by the loud laughter and footsteps around the house. thats what annoys me the most. if it wasnt for that, i know i ll be sleeping in till 10.30 or at the least 10. but for some people,s leeping me means waking up at 7.30. i mean, are u serious? not that im extremely surprised after staying here for a year and a half... but still, seriously? sat aroudn the house looking at ads for black friday shopping tomorrow. had mac and cheese for lunch while watching satellite- dont mess with the zohan. stupid lame movie. i cant even understand what theyre saying because of their accent. so well, i basically wasted my day today which is a pity, so im trying to make up for it toNIGHT. went to aunty lynnes for thanksgiving dinner where i stuffed myself full like how a stuffed turkey would look like. lots of good food though. there was turkey (duhhh) marshmallow sweet potato (delicious) cauliflower mash(great), baked potato(awesome), homemade punmpkin pie, ham, almond jello, cookies. geez, i was so full i could hardly breathe after. and and and, there was birthday cake tooo. it's my evil brother's birthday too. how coincidental it fell on thanksgiving. walked around the house sat and stoned. and there goes my day. not a very special thanksgiving to say the least. i think last year was more fun. but oh wells.

i m still debating if i should go black friday shopping tomorrow. that just means i have to get up at 4am!!! do i really want to do that? besides, im broke. seriously broke so theres nothign much i can get. i wanna go just because serramonte is giving out free gift bags that contains target giftcards from 10 bucks to 100 bucks. with no purchase whatsoever. u just have to be there. yeah, black friday is the big big big day to go shopping cos everything's on sale and different shops are giving out special deals or items. liek the first 50 people get a snowglobe or something. people do camp outside through the night especially at electronic stores liek best buy or circuit city where they have the best deals. of course we re not that crazy. i mean, its freezing cold outside too. soo im still debating. maybe i ll just set my alarm clock and if i can get up then i ll go otherwise, im just gonna sleep in. heh. what a great idea! but it is just once a year...... i can t make up my mind!

i have lots of homework and studying to do.. i cant believe how fast time is flying. one minute im freaking out over my application, the next over my tests and then homework and then finals. geez, thsi is never ending. yet at the same time, i dont want school to be over. i like school. call me weird. i cant believe i only have 1 semester left. sigh. im gonna miss skyline. the foggy windy cold days. but i guess for now, i should be focusing more on getting this semester done. i have have have to clear my homeowrk tomorrow. otherwise i ll be staying home whil emy parents are here. that just means shopping and banking in money too. muahaha. alright i should get going on some reading. and then twilight!! hhhahahaha.



happy birthday evil lil brother! even though he s not gonna read this. all i want from him is to study hard. high school is the hardest to get past here. people do go astray. so all i hope is that he stays focused on his studies and make mom and dad happy. simple as that. =D

twilight plus uc app

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

geez the uc application is soooo torturous. i was holding my breath while doing it subconsciously. my fate lies in the hands of the application now. all that is left to do is pay for the application fee. have to remember to ask! i should get it in tonight or tomorrow latest. dont want risk having my computer crash or the server die. hopefully all goes well and i get accepted into berkeley. shall stop thinking about it for now.

OMG TWILIGHT WAS AWEEEESOMEEEE! i think its second to harry potter! wait, it is second to harry potter. heh heh. it was really nice. loved it. cant wait till the next moviw come out. i actually havent read the book but i sure am now. we went to costco after the movie and the first book was only 7 bucks. its the reprint copy though and i think i like it better than a hand holding an apple. haha. at least it has cedric diggory on. =D the book was cheaper than my lunch so joyce got it for me. after all, it was she that got me into it. but its a rather bad timing to try to read it. i keep having to stop because of homework and studies. so i could only read it right before i go to bed which is bad for my eyes cos i read it lying down. >.<

i should get back to studying o chem now. i have no clue how to write the reactions. all so complicated. i never had a knack for chem anyways. but i really need to do well for this test or im doomed. i need the inspiration and motivation. its hidden somewhere.....

mom and dad are seriously coming at the wrong time too. got sooo much to do over the next 3 weeks. sighh... sorry if i dont go out or become grumpy. thats because im worried about finals. so watch out for a grumpy me when u come.

and to dory: sorry but i think our letter has got to wait....

love love love

Saturday, November 22, 2008

its finally friday! have been waiting for this day since forever. this week's been pretty tiring. sleeping later than usual is not a very smart idea. school was kinda boring today. physics and chemistry were just taking forever to pass. hung around in the cafeteria till 1 then went to te learning center to check my personal statement. and the frustrating part is, its either really good thats why they have nothign to say on where i can improve on or they just cant make out what's wrong and are horrible tutors. i dont know. im just gonna get it in by tuesday latest. i need to get this over with. 2 more weeks and its gonna be finals. technically 1 and a half sincew next week theres only 3 days cos of thanksgiving. im gonna be really busy tryign to tie up all the loose ends so i could spend time with mom and dad. stressing out again? cant wait till theyre here though. at least i think so. talked on the phone for an hour with mom just now. serious stuff plus crappy stuff. and i talked to my puppy too though i doubt he understood what i was ssaying since he didnt bark when i asked him to. i really do want to go back in december. dont know if i have to do anything for ptk or the case study challenge though. argh. reminds me i should get my essay in soon though she didnt mention the deadline. sigh. so much stuff to do near the end of the semester. and so many distractions too. oooh yes gonna watch twilight tomorrow! i dont know what its about but im thinking/knowing that its gonna be good. the last movie i watched in the theaters was narnia. ages ago! alright. should go to bed now.. was watching love blossoms 2. 3 episodes already. woohoo. heh. i dont think its showing yet actually. something to watch while eating when no one;s home now.haha.

still have to respond to letters over the weekend and study!! grrr... i shall hang on for another 3 weeks and not be lazy.

i cant believe my finals are one after another. 2 on the same days too.

=(

Friday, November 21, 2008

maybe being the young one isnt that great after all.....

tired

Thursday, November 20, 2008

physics is finally over. it was hard. as usual. hopefully the curve will help again. im sooo tired right i really dont want to do anything but i still have my chem prelab to crap out and my persoanl statement to touch up. i cant wait till thanksgiving. MOMMY AND DADDY ARE COMING OVER! yoohoooo! shopping plus food plus love. heh heh. although its really quite a bad time. have my final exams the week after. or almost. oh wells. we ll see about that. if not, its just gonna be more late nights. slept at 1am yesterday. of course, it wasnt quite successful. around 12 ish, i just started surfing the net. looking at my notes every 15 minutes. lol. greenify skyline today. didnt do anything technically but i got my free shirt. hah. thats why u pretend to be active in a club. im mean. see i still have my singaporean side in me. ><

soooo sleepy i could definitely fall asleep right now. brain not functioning. i realize i still have tons of miscellaneous stuff to do. 3 more weeks till the semester ends. this semester just zooomed past. seriously. and i want to say its one of the semesters where i had the most fun and i actually enjoyed going to school and class. maybe not for some like anthro and socio where i just wished i could do something else in there. the back few pages of my notebook are doodles and random words which i usually try to write with my left hand. its sooooo boring i enjoy going just because i dont have to do anything. i just bring in my coffee and daydream. exams are the easiest to study for too. oh yes. i got the highest for socio. wheeee. happy. (my eyes hurt now. i think my degree has definitely gone up)

i cant believe berkeley might actually stop accepting freshman admissions. thats what i heard. dont know how true it is but our school district just lost/cut back 300 million dollars. very very very bad. I WANT/NEED TO GET INTO BERKELEY! stop being so picky about ur students. heh. liek thats gonna happen.

i watched lizzie mcguire while having dinner yesterday and they played this song. i played it for 4 hours straight while studying yesterday. tell me im insane. I LOVE DISNEY!

i should get started on my stuff now and plop straight to bed after. I NEED STRONGER CAFFEINE! ITS NOT DOING ITS WORK NO MORE!

change....

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

i hate the fact that everything's changing.

happy days

Monday, November 17, 2008

i lived in my own world today. =D very happy day i must say. got up pretty early since i was thinking of going vacaville with them today but changed my mind the last minute. played the ds. made chocolate chip cookies instant ones duhh. basically raiding whatever was in the fridge. surfed the net for a while before going back on my bed with the ds. think i actually napped but the phone woke me up. heh. it was only 20 minutes? i mean i just woke up not long ago sooo yeah. im a pig but who gets to do this often? actually i think this is actually the first other than the time i was sick. made kaye's card and lunch time! had noodles. good hot spicy noodles. yum. watched 3 hours of tv. heavenly. kiddy shows though. icarly, spongebob, drake and josh. my old teen nick. ><>while they had sushi (they kept saying how i should have went so i dont have to eat leftovers. =S) annoying please. watched more tv. mtv cribs, icarly, drake and josh. and they come home so i finished my personal statement and here i am. =D i am one happy satisfied princess. ><>

wicked

Sunday, November 16, 2008

wicked. got up in the morning since the doorbell rang and no one else was home except for jon who was downstairs who's obviously still sleeping. was aunt suzanna. apparently, a cop was outside filing report. some brainless people used a bb gun or whatever u call that that shoots out small tiny yellow balls to shoot random stuff, or rather cars. so it hit our blue odessey and the back windshield broke. i think they already know though since they left so early in the morning. aunt jenny had to work too. i guess she drive janet's car. oohh wells. we'll see. they have insurance too so shouldnt be too big of a problem.

and and and, my right eye's swollen again which sucks cos it feels weird. i already expected it to happen though since ive been sleeping really late the past few nights and have been using the computer for hours daily. could feel it last night too. i have triple eyelids now. muahaha. hope it goes away tomorrow. so for now, i shall look creepy. its halloween all over again. ><

last week was rather alright. monday was a holiday so days flew by really fast and there wasnt any tests too. if only weeks could go by like that. got my personal statement done on wed night/thursday morning so i could let my chem professor look over it. sent it to catherine and kaye too. i didnt think it was too great, like prettty normal and lacking substance but apparently they all think its good. not outstanding but good. and they cant bloody tell me how to improve it. like should i elaborate more or put in more details or blah blah blah. i dont know! this is the next frustrating part. i did go over the word limit so i hav to cut it down or condense it. but i feel like i have to add something to it. went to see joyce lee my counselor on friday too suring her drop in hours. i have to rememebr to attach files to my email! but she was really nice and just read it there. said i should make it more personal for the first part but she said it was alright too. like its solid, answered the question blah. kinda helped me look over grammar too. got an appointment with her on monday after school so hopefully she can say somethign about it again. that means i have to edit it today or tomorrow again. really want to get this over with. i only ahve 2 weeks. should be fine though. i think some people have yet to start too. they are screwed. ><

got physics test on wed and i havent started studying which is really bad. i dont know why but im really not spending time on physics at all. not good. i know im gonna regret it. and i finally got my first A on a chem exam. okay it was for lab so its kinda different but 97 is a big deal to me. 3 semesters and this is the first A i got on an exam. sad right. heh. i like chem now!

i have my bro's ds lite with me now and its a huge distraction. mom's gonna get me one too once she has enough points and she can exchange for one. but she says she'll wait for the new one that s coming out according to her. didnt hear bout it though. maybe im just in my own world. hehe.

alright should get studying now. and people should stop calling the house cos i hate answering phones. i always go hello hello cos i cant recognize who's calling. heh. so pardon me for being dumb.

weekends

Monday, November 10, 2008

1. i really need to do my homework and study
2. i want to go shopping badly
3. but first, i need cash or a credit card! i m highly broke.
4. i want to shop at ulta surprisingly and get the bare essentials kit and i want my paul mitchell shampoo back! mom bought a brand new bottle in singapore since mine was almost finished when i was there. didnt use it in the end! ><
5. i want my snacks to munch on!
6. i want a plasma tv in my room now so i can watch disney channel and animal planet and nickelodean and abc and simpsons and family guy
7. i want to go to hokkaido or at least somewhere with family. what happened to our yearly vacations? (okay fine i just came back from one 2 months ago)
8. i want to hug my lil dog
9. i still need to my personal statement
10. i need to stop whining!

more peektures from induction on friday

induction

Sunday, November 09, 2008

weekends are finally here. best thing is, monday is a holiday too! hooray! okay, maybe nothign to be too happy about since theres still tons of stuff to be done especially my PS which has to be done asap! still i spent the whole day of today doing nothing which felt great! heh. what beats a care free day right.

got up at 10. watched videos-grey's anatomy, private practice... went to nicholas and nathan's party at the pool. didnt swim though so just sat around and played a very complicated card game. haha. got home and continued sitting in front of the com. i know my eyes are getting worse.

what i really wanted to blog about was yesterday-friday! went to school in the morning as usual. skipped physics to study for my chem which i dont think really helped. i got all so confused over the exam because of 1 question which he messed up on. hopefully we get some points or im afraid i ll do pretty badly and that is not good at all. we were all gathering outside class after the exam discussing out answers. funny sight. went home at 1 since i missed my bus when class ended at 12. got home, ate, showered, watched more videos and changed for ptk induction. whee. got to school at 5 when we were supposed to be there at 5.30. i leave 5 minutes away and am half an hour early. crazy or what. and the bad part was.... the school was locked! all the doors were shut! i walked around trying the doors for each building but it didnt work. heh. people could get out but they couldnt get in. so just sat at the back away from the wind until 5.30. the sky was getting pretty dark too cos of daylight savings. felt like it was 8pm. walked around and finally saw soemone. phew. plus i was carring a big poster board and wearing heels too. kill me please. walked to the front of the cafeteria building and the other officers started coming. saw dr case too. her keys didnt work either. knocked on the door of the security window but they were either not there or couldnt hear us. case even kicked the door. haha. could tell she was kinda mad though since she did tell them that we were having our ceremony. plus there was gonna be people from another school too. got into the building eventually but couldnt open the door to the room. boo. once we got everything settled and stuff (i do hate that security guy btw, he sooo annoying) started to decorate the room, moved the tables, got chairs, arranged the food. was fun. people started to come in and we got prepared. though we were pretty much crapping around. we all said a couple of lines and people got inducted. really special. we officers got inducted too and we all got a medallion. how great is that. and it was case who gave it to us. the other school didnt even have anything. boo. our advisor's the greatest. couple of funny moments after the ceremony. we were people watching, seeing how people get their food. so there was this guy trying to get grapes with a fork. of course, its hard to get grapes with a fork so he used his hand in the end and got a whole bunch and almost cleared the platter so were just started laughing and case came by wondering why we were smirking. i had my mouth full so i didnt want to talk and so did maggie. we just kept quiet and she was like, i hate being left out. hahah. funny. towards the end when we were packign up, i was mumbling or rather she didnt really hear me so there was this silent pause. haha. confusion... we gave her flowers and chocolates as well which she called candy. lol. ashley was like make sure it stays alive and repot it. haha. she was like repot is not in my vocab. haha. she's a biology professor who has an Ed. D! haha. i know there s no link there. she sent us a really sweet email just now on a saturday. she a workaholic.

"You did a great job. That was one of the nicest inductions yet. And, thank you for the plant and candy."

that is just so unlike her. seriously.

everythign turned out really well. got home around 9. had lots of fun. <3>

alright. should at least do something today. shall go find more articles for case study challenge. good night peeps.

the poster board i spent hours making. it ate my ink too. heh.

my nice lil medallion. =D


ps. listening to can i have this dance from hsm. in love with it. i havent even watched the movie yet! need to watch it soon!

i love my dog

Thursday, November 06, 2008

my dog just bit someone again. heh. thats for touching my very unfriendly dog. serves u right? =P no one touches my puppy! grrr. i wonder do people not understand that if a dog bares his teeth, you should remove ur hand and not touch him? is it not common sense? =S so it was the housing agent he bit and that tallies up 4 victims. quite a lot for a golden retriever. okay maybe not quite. its extreme. i'd say he's just being protective. =D he bit my maid and brother because they were trying to get him off someone's legs- i dont remember who so that was an "accident" not intentional that they just got in the way and the other two are people who cant keep their hands to themselves.

i hate how my dad keeeps teasing him. apparently he lets him off the leash and being roger, he runs ahead. so my dad takes that time to turn around and hide away from him. being the family dog, he turns around every minute or so and it definitely scares him to death when he sees that theres no one around. that must feel horrible. i hope he stops doing that. okay now im depressed. i miss my puppy. =S

off to continue to do my boring assignments and chemistry review. i want monday to come and then thanksgiving.

daylights savings

Monday, November 03, 2008

yoohoo! daylight savings time is here! 1 extra hour for us. at least until it becomes normal or feels normal rather. got my extra hour of sleep. wheee. so this weekend was a blast. lots of stuff happened. good stuff. but the bad part is, i havent done anything productive other than completing assignments that are due tomorrow. and thats making me panicky. lots of stuff left undone and theyre all important too.

1. study for chemistry exam on friday
2. get personal statement done
3. finish prelab for chemistry for thursday
4. get induction poster board done by friday
5. study physics exam for following wednesday
6. finish anthropology enculturation paper for this thursday

doesnt seem like much but they all take really long to do and are freaking important too. especially personal statement and studyign for exams that i understand nothing about. sigh. gonna be a hard period to ride through. hopefully i ll survive well enough to be smiling through december.

went to cafe bakery for lunch today. milk tea! finally. got home and finished up my assignments admist all the mahjong bickering and noise. played cards while having dinner. showered and here i am. should finish chemistry before sleeping or i ll totally feel bad and wasted. so off i go now. wheeee. hopefully that 1 extra hour helps somehow. =D peace out

i 'm sooo broke its not even funny. its all because of dinner last night. but tempanyakki was good. i think i could live in japan.

bad part is, i think im done eating again. theres always this period of time when i get sick of eating. i dont think this is good at all. how can one get sick of eating all the time. and its not like i ate a lot. i think. heh.

wasted day

Sunday, November 02, 2008

i think i just wasted my whole sat. and my eyes hurt. ive been on the com since 10.30am wandering aimlessly around on the net ever since. soo unproductive though i ve got tons to do. maybe i'll make it a late night again. after all it is saturday. right. great way to comfort myself. im thinking its the weather thats making me sooo lazy.

i should get off the com now before i become blind?

poker halloween

if all the raindrops were lemondrops and gumdrops, oh what a rain that would be.....

perfect for this weather. its gonna be raining all weekend. gloomy but nice. although a rather bad time to sit down and study. heh. i dont even know when the last time it rained was.

so yesterday was halloween. still had school though. there was barely 7 people in the class for pe which was kinda expected so he let us out early though really, it waasnt much of a difference to me. went to the cafeteria to get my latte. im definitely addicted to coffee and thats what sucking all my money away. i spend like 15-20 bucks on coffee a week! sigh. bad bad habit. its not my fault they dont have milk tea here. or else i could alternate. heh. lots of people dressed up in school too. not much of a surprise. i had a winnie the pooh in my physics class. cute. cafeteria was really interesting. there was a guy who painted himself all silver and acted like a statue. those really popular in london where u give them money and they start moving. though he wasnt professional. duh. haha. lots of interesting costumes. poeple really go all out. so school was fun. eneded at 12 and went to get stuff from dr case. yeah she gave me a trick instead of a treat. work to do for induction. boo. waited till 1 and went home by bus. it was drizzling too. oh wells.

got home had my french onion soup and joyce came home. thats when we decided to bake for halloween later since we were going to aunt lynne's place. pumpkin patch from the hello cupcake book! adorable. too bad i dont have pictures here. but finding the ingredients or rather decorating stuff was difficult. we went to like 6 different places to find decorating sugar. lol. we already had baking mix and all the other stuff. it was just the licorice and ORANGE sugar that we had t find. went to lucky's where we werent too lucky, target, safeway, the dollar store, mollie stone's where they had a wide variety of color but ran out of orange. eventually just got the gold. went to other places too but i dont know the names. still it was crazy. spent like one and a half hours looking for stuff. eventually got home. everything went smoothly then so we could still make it there quite early. made the icing a little too watery so it dripped over the sides after decorating it. but it was still adorable. especially the mini ones. tasted great. a lil too sweet cos of the icing but who cares. sugar!

went over and had dinner. was hungry by then. when the kids were carving their pumpkins, the others played poker. fun! only because i won. muahha. lots of different games- 357, texas, omaha, 7 27, shopping! really expensive games. haha. apparently i could trick people really well. okay i think it was just my luck but not beginner's luck cos there were other beginners. jan and joyce's guys. haha. i want to play poker now. anyone? got home around 12. showered and watched paris's new bff. fell asleep after and didnt wake up till 10.30 this morning. sweet. one of the longer sleep i got without being disturbed by people walking all over the house.

watched videos. had costco lunch. yeah. feeling really lazy though i really should be studying. chem test next week and i have really really no idea what its about. Sn1 Sn2, E1 e2 what kind of reaction is that??? and physics the week after. and most importantly, i still have my personal statement to do!! help? going to go to janet's surprise party i think. hopefully it won tbe too weird. oh wells. off i go to try to get motivated. if not its nap time. =D

too adorable to resist!

aww. i have to say he looks sad and i dont know why.

happy early halloween

Friday, October 31, 2008

this week has been so hectic i cant believe i survived it. still, im glad all the same. supposed to have anthropology test on tues but class was freaking cancelled! i didnt have to go to school at all if i knew earlier. good thing janet was home so she could drive me home and i didnt have to walk. and i studied so hard too. wed had sociology test. stayed up really late again to study. in fact, studied till 1am. i dont know why i was freaking out so badly when i did really well on the first test and his tests arent really that hard. its multiple choice too. but that was what killed my next day. literally jumped out of bed at 8.20am when we usually leave the house at 8.30. havent jumped out of bed in a really really long time. i think since i came here, i never overslept for school. so that came as a surprise. just showed how much i was studying. waha. but yes, i was really tired from all that late night studying on monday too. no wonnder i hate having tests. why do they have to be on consecutive days? today had anthro and chem lab test. didnt turn out too bad for chem. good thing i went for help at mesa. clarified some stuff. hopefully it worked out. saw dr case on the way out. have to remember to get stuff ffrom her tomorrow.

really irrelevant stuff here so please dont bother reading
i feel weird inside. mayeb its from the lack of sleep. i ve been looking at cupcakes for the longest time and have fallen in love with the hello cupcake book. so the other day, joyce came home with the book from costco. she was like look at it, its so cute. yes i know. i looked at it a week before u did. she's been acting really conspicuosly these days or i should say showing off? so i was totaly uninterested. i get it youre the oldest. its so funny how we have so much in common. every single time i think or like something, i dont say it and the next few minutes or days depending on what it is, she says the same things. yes like the cupcake. especially when her guy's around, she acts all big bossy and its annoying me? so youre going to japan next week. she was soo whiny she couldnt get her days off on monday. i know im super mean here. but please, urgh. im recently getting very annoyed with her thats all i can say. i really want to get my own life with my family again. i miss having that freedom, the feeling that i can do whatever i want without thinking about anyone else. i really want my dog right now. i want to go shopping. fine i want ot be alone.
and i was talking to a 33 year old in school today who thinks she's so great. i really dont care what u have to say. so youre twice my age. she thinks shes right all the time and all the power is in her hands. so we were talking in the cafeteria. and i answered her on the subejct which was on the same line. she was like, so do u know what i wanted to say next. geez fine handle the conversation if u want to. cant a person say something that u dnt want to hear or is not answering ur freaking question. and so i went to sit at the table behind her since i didnt want to stop her from doing her studying. and she turns around saying, oh if u were studying u could sit with me. like wth. i m phrasing this really badly but i dont care. why do i have to pronouce genevieve the french way?! i think this is totally from the lack of sleep. ramblings. i want to go to bed but i know i cant with so mnay things on my mind. there s so much to complete by next week.

compulsiveness and teddy's letter

Sunday, October 26, 2008

i think i spend way too much on food and unnecessary stuff. plus im a compulsive buyer. and i'm soo attracted to stationaries. i know its weird. i know i can spend a whole day at michaels and end up buying their whole store.

went to the samaritan house at san mateo today to donate backpacks. its make a difference day! met up in school and its such a weird feeling. like its sooo quiet and empty. everything's close too. like its 6pm on a weekday. carpoled there. basically it was just carrying boxes and counting them once we got there. lol. got dropped off at tanforan and here's where i spent big bucks again. went to tutti fruitti to have my yoghurt icecream. its soo good. got lots of diff flavors. mango, green tea, peach, apple, strawberry and rainbowed colored sprinkles. it looked so pretty. went to mrs fields next and got 20 cookies for 5 bucks. heh heh. chewy cookies are heavenly. too bad it was straight out of the oven. it would have been so much better otherwise but still, it hit the right spot in my belly (which is getting bigger by the day). went to target. got a gift, snacks, paper cutter, and filler paper. i didnt even get what i need. lol. other than the gift. lol. i actuallly have a shopping list but obviously didnt use it. wanted to go home but i didnt bring my bus schedule so walked there to find out there was another 35 mins till the next bus so went back in and got cinnamon sticks from auntie anne's. see im a food a holic. =D sat at the food court munching, resisting the attempt to get starbucks which was 10 steps away. success. haha. already spent 40 bucks so yeah, i was guilty? went home. i dont know why i got off at the gas station so i had to walk all the way up. survived the killer hill thankfully. got home. did physics while going on facebook thousands of times and going around the internet. spent like 2 hours when i really should have only spent 1 maybe 1.5.

this is off track:

i just received a letter from my teddy. so glad to hear from her. im beyond over the moon if this even makes sense. i ve been waiting so long for her letter. she wrote it on 2 october and i only got it now (october 25). it took 23 days/3 weeks!! to singapore, its only 1 week. whats with the difference?! i thought i didnt put enough stamps or it got lost or something. thank goodness it wasnt. i teared while reading her letter. soo many memories. can you imagine, 10 years??!! she did soo much for me. she sent me a pic of her too with her family. its just so nice? i cant find another word. i really cant wait till the day i get to see her again. i think if my parents ask where i want to go next time, i ll say philippines. screw paris or japan or gold coast. (okay, i m saying that can wait). i want to see my teddy! * stomps around like a spoilt child* she cares so much bout me, studies and all. every single time i talk to her directly or indirectly, she ll say be good. haha. so cute. and she still has a vegenance against my doggy. yes she got bitten by him before and according to this letter, she said her head almost got hit by a tree since doogy saw another dog and became aggressive. i know whats it like. you have to pull so had, ur feet cant stay on the ground and its like youre pulling to the point of strangling him. but i know she still loves him. we used to go to the playground at ridgewood but before that, we get red bean/cocnut iceream and we give him the last bit on the stick before we head home. of course, tht was ages ago. i think i should stop reminiscing for now. i still have tons to do on my checklist for today.

the house is going to be chaotic soon since jon is getting all his friends over. peace out.

let me dream of teddy tonight please. ><

heroes

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

i think i actually stopped breathing while watching heroes. lol. love that show to bits! thats why i look forward to monday NIGHTS! and now, goodnight.=D

fall

Monday, October 20, 2008

i think fall is really here now cos im shivering in my room when the windows and door are closed.



today was totally unproductive and i feel sooo guilty now.



i think im gonna make sure i come home early tomorrow and hopefully find some motivation to study some horrible physics and chemistry.



i totally could have gone to the pumpkin fest and try to eat some pumpkin. i dont think i ever ate pumpkin since i was in singapore american school where i got to bring home my own pumpkin. pumpkin pie, pumpkin icecream, pumpkin falvored coffee and what not. theres all these advertisement out there for pumpkin delicacies which i really dont find appealing.



(my hair on my arm is really standing and im too lazy to get up to get my blanky or jacket) im totally bummed. i think i might even sleep early. and its only 9pm. what a day.



i dont know why im paragraphing when theres only one sentence. and this is super random.



and here's to making it more random:

that was after his birthday dinner. lol. he looks sooo evil like he's ready to kill. muahhaa. perfect for halloween. =D

good night peeps.

cupcakes?

i dont want to do any work!! everyone's out again, well except for jon who's sleeping. i m supposed to declare today to be chem and physics day but till now, its still staring at the internet, finding food day. =D how fun. i shall make sure i start after i click the x button. i will not waste my day since if it wasnt for school, i would be out at the pumpkin festical with the kids and jan and joyce. though not as interested as i thought i would be, it will be at least a day out for me. ( i do realize i m typing extremely weird sentences)

every blog i go to, its on baking and cupcakes. its making me wanna bake too. the cupcake books/recipes are soo adorable. hello, cupcake! but yeah, not like im gonna be usign the oven until maybe christmas if they decide to make sugar cookies again. scrap the thought.

cant wait till dec. or maybe not cos theres so much to do before that.

im just here typind crap because im procrastinating again. =D

now, whats for lunch? pumpkins anyone? or marie calenders. or clam chowder, or noodles? i want my food!

buffets

Sunday, October 19, 2008

i dont know if its the stress or the sleepiness but something is making me very lethargic and hungry all the time. i ve been seriously eating the whole day. as much as i want to stuff myself now again, i do feel very unhealthy because im not stuffing fruits and vegetables down my throat but total junk! my menu for today: strawberry instant oatmeal, banana, cream puff (breakfast), shrimp wanton instant soup, progresso chicken soup, gum, chocolates (lunch), rice with fish, vegs and pork ribs, chocolate, chips, cookie (dinner) and probably something else later for supper. something is wrong with me! maybe its from not eating proper lunch in school. because of stupid meetings that sometimes get cancelled in the end or classes that let you go off early after a 2 hour waiting time plus having the instructor read u the entire manual that makes me go insane. i swear ive been having one dollar cup noodles and one dollar chips for lunch at least twice or even thrice a week. i need better food if not at least let me go home early to have better microwavable food. im so grumpy and unhealthy now.

just watched a tv programme onlin from mobtv thats about buffets and omg, the last one that they showed just made me more hungry and craving for buffets now. its called melt-the world cafe at the mandarin hotel. someone save me! i was drooling watching it! i havent had such food in soo long. we hardly go out to eat now because people are so busy with their after work/school life. to say the least, we hardly talk or see each other now. i havent been home early for a few weeks now and wont be either for the next few weeks either so its go home, shower, eat, do homework/study, sleep. we're all stuck in our own rooms. of course, other than the showering part. ><>

• the flight got delayed and i wasted 4 bucks for a horrible cup of mango freeze at the airport from coffee bean


• we waited for the shuttle to the airport for an hour only to realize we were waiting at the wrong place so we got a cab when we could have shared a limo. a limo!! in vegas! wasted!


• they wouldnt let us check in since it was booked under our advisor's name who wasnt there but in utah so i had to call her. and she is a scary intimidating person but nice in a way


• after workshop, took bus to circus circus. won 2 bears so i wasnt sad.


• walked all the way to bellagio!!!!!!!! this was insane!! wearing my converse was the worst idea ever too! it was infinite kilometers! go try it yourself. it was walkign the entire vegas trip. maybe 1.5 times of that too! my feet were killing me. flip flops would have made it more tolerable.


• to make it worst, we missed the show we walked there for. thanks. by 3 minutes too!


• took a bus back to circus circus and thanks to a great guy by the name of blank, we decided to walk back instead of the bus because we thought it was near.


• crossed a freaking highway! i was soo scared i was pissed. plus one of the guys didnt have a very good leg too. he just got out of surgery. i was freaking out for him.


• second day was a lot better though i was abandoned in the hotel room for being under 21. watched disney channel till i fell asleep. wasnt bad considering the fact that i love disney. went down for coffee-craving for iced latte and got souveniers


• fell asleep watchign tv. so cool the tv had sleep mode!


• was freezing cold and windy while waiting for the shuttle back to the airport. but thats about it. overall, a good trip for the weekend.

random peektures!

at the airport...where we walked to-bellagio. gorgeous but it almost killed my feethaha. loser slots. such a liei got the 2 bears. jack gave me the dog and we named it puppy.

i think i should head off to study otherwise it ll be morning by the time i decide to finish my notes. halloween is here soon and i want tons and tons of candy. stomachs grumbling again. i need foood. or maybe not.

i miss mom and dad. i think dad's overworking himself way too much. all thanks to his promotion. he's been traveling non stop for the past few months-india, germany, taiwan and who knows where else. its like flying off every week, styaing home for a couple of days and flying off again. i feel sad for mom whos always home alone stuck with my dog as she complains. but....... that might change soon.

mom told me a few days ago that dad considered letting me go back to singapore over the winter break since i have a month off. BUT, i was thinking of going for an internship at davis whcih is 2 weeks in jan. so i dotn know. i really do want to do both. or sort of. davis-the problem is transportation. they dont offer us a place to stay so we basically have to travel there by ourselves everyday. they give us 600 bucks but it s not going to be enough for me. no way are they going to drive me to sacramento and back everyday. its freaking far. i dont think 2 hours is even right both ways. so i really dotn know. due date for application is coming up soon too. if i dotn go to that then i MAY go back. dad's afraid im gonna get bored. hee. but im not getting my hopes up and neither should you. i mean it ll be great but i already went back in the summer plus its gonna cost too. and i wonder what the family will say if they know i m gonna go back. waste of money blah blah blah. so for the time being, i would say blank. we ll wait and see. dad's coming in dec for a meeting-see hes gonna travel again but yay! i get to see him but boo! exams will be round the corner. why cant things be simple.

alright i think ive procrastinated enough and this has been a bloody long post in a while. i m still craving to eat so fedex somethign over please. thanks.

say hi to the dog who tried to act cute and handsome. okay, he didnt act, it's his real self. =D

our favourite mango desserts. i think we had it 3 times there? heavenly...